let go, let go...
Ungefär så pepp ska vi va ikväll! WEEEEHEEEE
WOW, that was swedish... weird...
Tomorrow: Mässa, Harry Potter with:
A today little less brown Sofiaaa, and sisters! Then dinner with familys!
LOVE
next time you point a finger, I´ll point you to the mirror
Psychotic Hayley Williams! haha
You know, I was just zapping through boring tv channels today, and for a second I started watching some idiotic american reality show, now there were these two girls having a shouting match at eachother. It struck me how many times they were using the word "like". "I mean, it´s, like, really hard..." "I don´t know if I can, like, trust you anymore". "Every time I, like, look at you I, like, feel bad". "I feel so, like.. stupid". "I like.. just don´t care like anymore".
They sounded as if they had no idea what they were saying, or as if they needed small breaks to remember what the next word was gonna be. And thy said it in all the wrong places too! They sounded really thick, "like stupid like dimbos or something"... Haha, it was quite amusing, entertaining to listen too for a while though, until I wanted to throw something at them instead...
I would like to dedicate this very special, extra post to Sofia haha! xx
ska jag sjunga, ja då ska det finnas tid att sjunga fritt
Apparently the seventh film part one has premiere tonight in New York... Why should America be favoured before Sweden, alright if England has their premiere a few days before the rest of the world because it´s a british production, but the US? That´s rubbish (to quote Ron Weasley..).
I don´t care what people say, Daniel Radcliffe is sexyy haha! Actually all fo them are... But there is something about the hero character, dirty and bloody, heroic and strong... I mean WOOHU!
But speaking of americans, guess which american band just released their new music video? You guessed it! Paramores "Playing God" made a video. And it´s really funny too, tied up boys, locked up in a cellar and poisoned by a pink-haired Hayley! Bit psychotic if it hadn´t been so funny!
And now I am so longing for christmas and christmas carols and my star in my window. Littelest sister and her friends are gonna be singing christmas carols at their dinner they are making to raise money, and me and oldest little sister pretty much forced poor Frida to convince her friends to let us teach them to sing in harmonies! So. Much. Fun! So now I´m humming on "när mörker och kyla ligger kring vårt hus då vill vi vänta på julen kring ett levande ljus, låt det brinna-a, låt det brinna-a, ljuset som vi tänt" and "have yourself a merry little christmas" in my muchiest deepest voice I can muster!
Well that was pretty much it, hope this doesn´t bore you into tears!
Allting jag skriver det bli ändå för kort, och allt som är bra med mig har jag förmåga att glömma bort
Only this and nothing more"
Will I see light again?
"Quoth the Raven, 'Nevermore'"
I did think this sentense today, asking my imaginary Raven whether I´d ever see light again. Why should I ask the Raven such a thing, when all he ever answers is "Nevermore"?
Well anyhow, I realised that there was very little light and warmth in my room, in which I´m sitting to write this english essey, which is going all kinds of wrong right now. So I thought of all that I had promised myself this summer, to learn to take joy of the small things. Well this is how I did it:
Pillows and a blanket, tea and moms bread with rassin which she baked yesterday (yum) ...
And "to reach the hight of romantic felicity" (Charlotte Perkins Gilman) a candle, to put my negative Raven right, I do see light!
These voices in my head, am I alone?
Thank you, ladies and gentlemen! Thank you, thank you!
Your job´s a joke, you´re broke
I´ve written exactly 1.111 words on my essey. I´m thinking that´s a pretty funny number. I´m thinking I´ll just leave it that way. I mean that´s exactly the way I want it. Only 1.111 words. Please don´t make me write more now and break my dream number...
"90% of a womans fermones come out of the top of her head. That´s why women are shorter so that men will fall in love with them when they hug them" Pheobe in Friends.
Haha!
We lie belly up in the pool of us
I´m sittin´with a cup f tea,
It´s a blue sky and orange trees,
And the sun is everywhere it seems,
As you can see I´m not very good at rhymes,
Haven´t done it that many times,
Inside it smells like apple pie,
But I´m here studiyng, oh my!
....
No ok, I give up, this is silly and ridiculuos, it will bore you to tears. M&S will be over soon, drink tea, study and plan London! Yeah, London baby! (Joey in Friends, big inspiration there!)
Anyways, I shouldn´t post this, you shouldn´t have to read this. In fact, don´t read it! Love!
det finns en fara i att aldrig hitta vägen, men det finns nåt vackert med att vandra den ändå
Tea, newly painted red nails, Frou Frou, balance in time, ache - cured with some dark chocolate, laughter, balance in my mood, autumn, rustling of colourful leaves, the cosy warming neckcloth lies constantly round my neck, think I´ll bring a blanket tomorrow to school to wrap myself in, Melissa Horn - every word fits perfectly in with everything I do, someone rapping at my chamber door, and congratz to my sweet sister (who´s unlikely to read this anyway, but I´ll say this anyhow) who turns fifteen today, yay, tegan and sara, hur ska det gå, hur ska det gå, hur ska det gå?, it smells like food, gee I need to clean my room, anyone wanna help with that -- don´t answer that actually, I have got so much to do, but I´m kinda' proud that the essey I´m gonna hand in on Friday was finnished as early as two days ago -- that was sunday right?, food now!
This holiday could not have come at a better time, I see it as a great puffy cushion comming in time to catch me right before I hit the floor.
Love to you all!
Är du en av dem som berörs ändå?
We practised expressions and emotions today on "sång och scenisk träning". I sang Melissa Horns Kungsholmens Hamn. Can not honestly think of a better song to practise emotional expressions on. When I got to the part when she sings "och vi fortsätter växa fast han förblir sexton år" I almost started crying myself because the text is so incredibly tragic, and some of the listeners looked as though she too might cry. So when Agneta yells "sing it happily" I was like NO! I burst at laughing fo even trying on a smile there...
A really good end of the day. Oh I´m listening to the song right now, Melissa sings it so beautifully....
Powerful picture, you never quite realise how big my rockstars are, probably 'cause their music haven´t been in my ears for a quite long time...
Di casa e di poesia
I thought I´d share a really good story with you. If you want something short but great to read I would strongly recomend The Yellow Wall-paper by Charlotte Perkins Gilman. It can be described in so many words. But the one I will choose is creepy. I really mean creepy literally. Oh and I just found out that the authors full name is Charlotte Mary Jane Perkins Gilman. Mary Jane in middle names, that creeps me out even more. Why? Read it and find out...
Here: http://www.library.csi.cuny.edu/dept/history/lavender/wallpaper.html
Can you see the smooches?
Singing to you over my shoulder
Tonight It´ll be just me and little sister Frida, we´re renting a movie and gonna eat Ben&Jerrys´ mahaha!
Love to all of ya!
Om hösten hittar hit igen, då håller vi ihop min vän, ja då lever vi för sommaren, om hösten hittar hit igen
Then we took a deep breath each and plunged our heads into the thick, confusing jungle of Project, with an enormous P!
Me and Amanda took a small stroll in some boutiques then walked to the train in the sun. Very well deserved and needed.
Since I came home I must have drunk at least four cups of tea, put on my newly purchsed, colourful leggins from Indiska, listened and sung along to Melissa Horn, Tegan and Sara nd Laura Pausini, I´ve read a bunch of blogs, one of them the blog of Elsa Billgren witch I stongly recommend and implore you all to read. I´ve studied in a calm and very medium pace, and I´ve read Elaine Bergquists´ fantastic book "Härskarteknik - den fula vägen till makt". have you not read it, you should. There is alot to learn, for instance how to recognise and respond to a bully and that persons technique. You might even recognise yourself in the position of the bully. She also kills, completely slaughter prejudices in all kinds of situations. Prejudices such as "women don´t like sports" or "gay men are skippy" or "blacks who know swedish speak "good swedish"". She´s so straight and isn´t afraid to use downright brutal expressions. Not a dull page, you laugh out loud at least once per page at her flair and bouyant way of expressing herself!
And god, I could just go on and on couldn´t I... haha well, I´m going back to my book now!
Lots of love!
London calling
But today, on a very spontaneous whim, me, Miahela an Sofia booked ourselves some tickets to the land of excitement! Country of wonderful language, redheaded folks and beautiful nature and architecture. Home of Shakespeare, Sherlock Holmes and Harry Potter! That´s right! For those of you who wasn´following me at first must have gotten my point at home of Harry Potter haha! We are going to London! For three days, we´re leaving our quiet home on february 28! Can. not. wait. I tell you! That was all I had to say this very fine evening. Love to all of you!
Last time I wsas in London, I was, what, 15? With my dad, Harry Potter 5 was showing in theaters and my dad convinced me I buy the seventh and last HP book in english to pick up my g-minus grade I currently had in english at the time. I hesitated a lot at first, but my god did it pay off to fight my way through it. That must be counted as one of my best money spent ever!
This is what Big Ben looked like when we were there, this very much sensational event was all over the news, pretty amusing really...
när man ser att det blöder ja det är först då det gör ont
Just got home an hour ago. It´s been a weird day, I spent most of it in tumba c, working. They had arranged this big girls night, all the shops in the centrum had open til 21.00. So from 15.30 to 21.30 I´ve been carrying tables and chairs, running up and down stairs, fetching papers and wires and more tables. Up and down the elevators with heavy things and well, you get my point, I´m very very tired.
But I realised I must finish my english paper tonight, or I´ll have everything for this weekend and I don´t feel like I wanna start stressing so early in on the term´, I´ll have pelenty of time doing that later, just wait maybe two-tree weeks then everything will feel like normal again - stressful.
What bugs me right now, nagging again in the back of my neck, is that I probably need to find a new job. I talked to my boss today and she can´t really afford to let me work right now, she hasn´t fired me or anything, she want to keep me but can´t afford to give me any hours, and I don´t know when she will need me again, so I suppose I must, I really need money... So that sucks, at least I´m glad I made a 1000 kr today..
Listening to Melissa Horn now, witch is making my heart fill up with happiness! And god, I´m reading this blog you must check out, it´s really beautiful. Different people are sending in stories about thier love lifes, all of them are so real and it´s like you can see yourselfe in the same situation even though you haven´t actually been there. I love it, check it out! www.leloveimage.blogspot.com
du som skriver om vad kärlek är
Who said you can´t miss what you´ve never had huh? Lots of talk of finding it, wishing you had it, and talk with those who has it. It´s nothing I´m gonna spend my time obsessing over, but sometimes you just.. I think Melissa Horn starts the thoughts, she sings of it so beautifully... she pretty much puts words on your thoughts sometimes.. But lately my life has been filled with so many other things I´ve never had. I have laughed more this summer than any other, Í have done things I never dreamt I would do and at times I have thought that there is nothing in my life that I miss. And partly that is true, however welcome love would be, I have so many people in my life to fill it to the brimm, almost anyway, we are all flexible and can make room for anyone. 
"Jag har en längtan som aldrig vill gå över"
"Ska jag älska, ja då ska det finnas tid att älska fritt"
Vi ska va dem vi vill vara, hellre nu än efteråt
I love getting on the bus in the morning and they´re playing "I´m gonna dance with somebody, dance with somebody, dance! Dance! Dance!" very loudly, and you wonder where the dancefloor went.
I love singing in the classroom in beautiful tunes with beautiful lyrics with beautifl friends. Love it when your classmates come in and they smile at you like you´re warming them up with the song!
I love sitting in peace, reading the newspaper, undisturbed by the world that is outside.
I love laughing hysterically until your stomach aches and you´re choking on your tea and you start laughing even more!
Wow I found these pictures from our first year on Steg, amazing how much it feels like we have changed!
Love it when you´re walking on a dark street, listening to great music, and you believe you´re alone. So you start singing along with the music in your ears, louder and louder. Then you suddenly feel like you´re in a music video so you have to smile up at the visible stars and spin around! As you do that you see this guy walking, not far behind you and you fall abruptly silent! Then realising that there is nothing to be ashamed of, "I can sing anyway" and then you do. Keep on walking and singing, without a care in the world!
When I got home my sweet sister came and asked if I could help her with her english homework. I got so happy!
Then I became aware that I´m missed here, my other wonderful sister told me how much she misses me, how much we used to hang out och talk and sing! I love you, you will always be my best singing partner, you know that! Love!
This really turned out a peppy post indeed! Well I´m full of it, peppy talk and smiles! Tomorrow the worlds best grandmother turns 70! We are celebrating that with a big pang party! I´m running over there to help her prepare right after school! It´ll be so much fun!
Love Love Love Love Love Love Love
Jag tror att livet just har börjat och det blir.. det blir vad jag gör det till
It´s redicoulously late to start blogging now, but I feel like I won´t be able to sleep if I don´t. I have had the most lovely day. I have listened to perfect music. It sometimes feel like they sing my feelings, have you felt like that too sometime? I love it, I just smile ´cause I know that I´m not alone feeling this.
Today I have been feeling like I´m in my own world. Just spinning around in circles to the music, singing loudly, cleaning up my room, trying on different clothes feeling like a princess at times. I feel like one now, sitting on my throne that is my bed, looking out over my very neat room that can represent my nowdays neat world, in a cosy light with a warm cup of tea, getting goosebumps all over my body to Melissa Horns´beyond beautiful, but very sad song "Kungsholmens Hamn".
I took a walk with Mihaela. We walked around for a bit and ended up by our first school, Parkhemsskolan. I almost felt like child, we remembered all our games we used to play on the schoolyard, we were especially skilled on a game called Lin. You throw a small ball as far as you can up a wall and then you jump over the ball as it hits the ground again. We had different jump-moves, we ruled that game!
Next Sunday, we are going back all day to play! We are going to play all those games we used to play and we are going to feel like children again. Can´t wait for next Sunday! Sorry Micks, can´t upload the pictures, gonna try again tomorrow.
Pictures I do have are from Friday. Another day I look back at, smiling. We have had so many wonderful nights this summer, so many beauiful moments I´ll remember all my life. But I have got. to. start. taking. my. own. pictures! I´m so bad at it haha, so once again I´m gonna borrow some!
Sofias´picture of us, I really enjoyed having you with me love. So much more to come! ( www.picturebridge.blogg.se )
Ammo, thank you beautiful, for all of it! ( www.calbucura.blogg.se )
Gee I just realised how many times I´ve said feel or feeling in this post, anyone know a substitute word, I think I could really use one...
Love Love Love Love Love
An ache in my body and regret on my mind
´the minute you settle for less than you deserve,
you get even less than you setteled for.´
´Never regret something that once made you smile.´
I have smiled so much this summer, I refuse to regrett any of it.
E se fosse per nostalgia
So now, 13 years later, I sit once again with the first piece of homework, or actually yesterday was the first day, today however I have more than one, I have quite a few actually. Nothing particularly difficult, but all the same. It´s a promise also, that there is more to come.
Haha wow I didn´t mean this post to become so sentimental, ah well, hope your day´s been really good!
